The last few days I haven't felt very "Buddhist" but then again what is a "Buddhist" anyway?I've been battling with my perfection/self-mortification complex that was deep rooted in growing up in an extreme Christian environment.
The ironic thing is that lately I've been getting into a deeper practice by meditating everyday so who knows.
A large part of this too is my chemical imbalance which sometimes holds me hostage for weeks at a time. From time to time I can lesson the blow but it still makes a major impact on me.
Even despite my medications I have still been feeling depressed and not very "spiritual."
Perhaps I'm just thinking too much.
I guess what I'm trying to get at is I need some advice and some encouragement if you have any.
Thanks.
(PHOTO: Temple on the mountain of Emei Shan in China. CREDIT: Nigel and Julie Snow).
-Peace to all beings-
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